I Finally Got My Philippine Passport

YES, you read that right. I am 23 years old and still haven’t got my passport until recently. The thing is, I actually tried to get it for 2 times already- it’s embarrassing! But oh well, let me tell you anyway..



First try, I was still in high school. I went online and fill up the application form and checked the requirements I need to bring. My supposed appointment was still in 3 months! It was a very long wait. On the day of my appointment, I went to DFA Alimall Satellite Office, then the security guards checked my documents and went inside to verify my appointment. When they got back, they told me that I don’t have an appointment, I was confused.. I told them that my appointment was that day and they said I am right; it was supposed to be on that day but I missed to confirm my appointment via email and I am supposed to confirm it within 24 hrs from the moment I set up an appointment for my passport!

I was so disappointed that day. It was clearly my fault for missing that detail. I wasn’t a tech savvy that time and I never really check or know how to check emails when I was still in high school. But that’s what happened. It was a total waste of time, but I thought I learned my lesson.

Second try, it was thru DFA’s program named Passport on Wheels. I used to work every Sunday for this church in a subdivision near where I live and the employees were kind enough to offer me to register because it was actually exclusive for the residents that lives in the subdivision. They asked me to submit my requirements and told me to monitor my email for the payment, but what happened was I forgot about it. And only checked my email when the employees there asked me why I didn’t show up.. Only then I checked my email and viola!! I received an email 3 days after I submitted my requirements. I felt so embarrassed that time.

Because of my 2 previous attempts, I stopped, and I tried to avoid thinking about trying again because I get so anxious about the idea, that time it seemed like getting a passport is not for me.

And then I tried again after years of avoiding it.

I tried for 3rd time because as you all know I am in a long distance relationship and passport is necessary for us.

For context: Long Distance Relationship: Meeting My Boyfriend For The First Time!

This happened last December 2020 and the earliest slots open that time will be on March 2021, but I still took it.

On the last week before my appointment date, I checked my requirements again to make sure I got everything right, but then I realized that the birth certificate I have with me is the old version which they don’t accept anymore. This really triggered my panic attack and I stared feeling dizzy, I messed up again.

But I tried to calm myself and thought how I can fix it. My mom told me that it’s very easy to get a birth certificate, you just need to go to the government agency in-charge of it, in our country it’s called Philippine Statistics Authority or PSA.

I went there the next day and everything went well and I was able to get what I needed the same day. But my anxiety got the best of me because before I went there, I already ordered my birth certificate online the night before thru the same agency’s delivery service. I was that anxious. Funny enough, I received it the day before my appointment so now I have 2 copies of my birth certificate with me!

On the day of my appointment, I came 2 hrs early because I was so scared to miss my appointment. I got there and stopped by at 7/11 Convenience Store to get something to drink. Then I went back to the satellite office, I waited in line for atleast an hr and after that everything went smoothly. I was overprepared and brought documents that I didn’t have to bring or they didn’t ask but that’s better than not being prepared at all, right?

I was told that my passport will get released after 2 weeks. But then Enhanced Community Quarantine happened!

You see, my appointment was on Friday, then the week after that our government announced ECQ. How lucky am I?! I am so thankful that it happened after my appointment because if not then I’ll have to wait and that will only make my anxiety worse.

Anyway, after 2 weeks ECQ was changed to MECQ and the satellite agency resumed their operation.

I was so excited the moment they handed me my passport! It felt surreal. After all the delays and unfortunate events here I am. I am now a Philippine passport holder!

Hopefully, I will be able to use this soon.

Cheers!

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Celebrate With Me!

I have few things to celebrate and I am so happy that I want to write about it.

But let me ask this first – how are you guys doing? I hope you’re doing well, I sincerely do. I sometimes read blogs from people I follow and I don’t follow just to know that everyone I care about in this community is doing well. We might not know each other in real life but know that I care about you. ❤️

First thing I want to celebrate is my blog’s 1 year anniversary! YAY!!

I didn’t know that I’ll get this far from blogging which I only started out of boredom during quarantine. Thank you for reading my posts and for the comments, I really appreciate it. I hope that we continue to be kind to each other. I feel really safe in this community and I hope you do too.



Related to that, I am also celebrating my 50th post on this blog. This is an achievement for me because I didn’t know that I will be consistent on my blog, I thought this is something I’ll forget or get tired of after a few posts. But I enjoyed every minute of it and didn’t realize I am posting blogs more than I expected! This makes me very happy and proud of myself!

Here’s my celebratory gif!

If anyone of you is wondering why I changed my blog’s name from icantwink to thesharedjournal, there’s really no deep reason behind it. I just felt that thesharedjournal is more appropriate name for my blog.

I still have stories for you which I originally planned to include on this post but I realized that its better if I make a whole new post about it. But I will publish it this week so.. stay tuned! ❤️

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Sunday Journal: What Keeps Me Sane ♡

Hi there!

How are you?

(I am writing using my phone right now through the app.)

I thought I’d write a short blog on what’s been going on with my life, nothing interesting or serious, I just want to share it with you!

Our city is currently on ECQ (Enhanced Community Quarantine), it’s supposed to last a week but it got extended, I am not surprised given how our government is handling this whole pandemic that resulted in rising cases. It sucks!

I am binge watching South Park to distract myself. I never thought I will like this show, I remember I tried to watch it when I was a kid but didn’t like it as I understand nothing from what they were talking about. Turns out it’s not made for kids! LOL.

So far I really like the characters especially Cartman, I think he’s funny!

Oh, also I am reading a book. My friend gave this to me when we met last year. She gave me lots of books and I am looking forward to reading all of them.

Have you read this book before? Let me know what you think of it without spoilers!

Earlier, I was trying to organise my notes on my phone. If I haven’t told you guys yet, I am very picky when it comes to organising. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not perfectionist but I’m very particular about how I organise my notes.

I am currently using Google Keep and I wanted to use a different app with more features. I spent hours looking for an app that meets all my needs, but in the end I didn’t find any and keep using Google Keep. Haha! Oh well…

Lastly, if you saw my last Story Post, it was photos of donuts that I made the other day. I was really craving for donuts, but I am too scared to go out and delivery is too much hassle right now because of ECQ. Our community doesn’t let outsiders come inside but if we really want, we can meet them at the entrance, but that’s too far from our house.

Anyway! I am still craving for donuts! I am not satisfied! I love Butternut flavour from Dunkin Donuts. I wish I can buy one ASAP. Haha!

Okay, enough for now. I will go to sleep.

Stay safe guys, I know it’s hard these days but we can do this! ♡

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Kids or No Kids?

Recently, I’ve been thinking about having kids or what it feels like to start a family.

I mean, I’ve thought of it before but thought more of it recently.. I already have names picked for both genders, actually.

It makes my heart warm whenever I see cute babies, especially when they do adorable stupid things. I am also curious to know what a mini me looks like. To raise someone and watch them grow. Motherhood excites me because of that.

But are those really the right reasons to have a kid?

This question stuck in my head for a while that it made me think, what if I decide to not have a kid?

What will it be like?

I read stories about child-free life, stories of people who choose not to have kids and are still very much happy with their decision. I realized that being a mother is a choice, not a goal nor everyone’s dream as a woman.

I began to think about what my life would be like if I choose to not have a kid, the money that we could save and the struggles that I will not experience.

But those are not just the reasons I think about not having a kid.

Because just by seeing the state of our world is right now, the constant chaos everywhere.. It makes me think if it’s still right to bring a child into this world, are they going to be happy with our decision to bring them here?

What’s going to happen after 10 years? 20 years? 50 years? Is it going to be better or worse? What’s the quality of our life is going to be?

And with myself? Am I going to be physically, mentally and financially ready?

There’s a lot of things that needs to be considered before you make a decision, and in my opinion, these are some valid points that we should consider before having a child.

No child deserves to live in such an unhealthy life, they didn’t asked to be born in the first place.

Being child-free is not really something we often talk about, especially in my culture… So, I am sure that many people will judge me if I choose to lead that life.

 

Anyway, do you have any thoughts about this topic? I would love to read your opinion, but for now I am still not sure what I want.

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Learning A New Language

I started learning Dutch more than a year ago but recently I decided to take it seriously as I wanted to have a knowledge of the language once I move to the country where my boyfriend lives.

It’s fun to learn new language especially whenever I listen to some Dutch kids’ songs, It made me feel like I am in preschool again and that kinda feels funny and awkward, so I listen to using my headphones whenever I am not alone at home. Haha!

I also talked to some people who are studying the same language and we exchange some learning materials.

There’s this girl who I met through Reddit that is also in a long distance relationship with someone who lives in The Netherlands. That time when we started she is already in the process of getting a work visa, I think? I am not sure what visa specifically, but she told me she’s applying to be an Au pair in The Netherlands so she can also see her boyfriend. She hasn’t met this guy yet because their relationship started during the pandemic.

And I can feel she wants to do it, and she’s willing to go through the long stressful process to be with her partner even though she haven’t met this guy yet. She talked to me a lot about her boyfriend, that she’s never been this happy as she was in abusive relationship prior that.

The dedication she has with learning Dutch and really going through the process of getting a visa. It made me realize how love can make us do all of this. Imagine her life turned in a whole different direction after she met this guy?! I can totally relate with that one! LOL.

Anyway, if anyone here is currently learning Dutch or is Dutch, please give me some advice about learning the language.. Thank you in advance!

Okay okay..

I will go to sleep now, I’ll write again next time..

Tot ziens! ❤️

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Hello there.

I apologize for my absence.

I have tried to be as productive as I can be, to write something about my life and daily shenanigans, but I became so unmotivated these past few months. Stress on my personal and professional life took a toll on my mental health, and it was very difficult to get past that. I’ve tried my best to be better and I’m getting there.

I am not sure if things is actually getting better to be honest, this is still regarding on what’s currently happening more specifically in our country. I have a lot to say about that but I will reserve my thoughts as I don’t want to be political.

To end this, I only hope that we see the light at the end of this dark gloomy tunnel soon.

Ah.. I’ve missed writing so much but bye for now..

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Welcome 2021. ♥️

I apologize for not posting the previous weeks; I got transferred to night shift because of my new role at work and I had to adjust my body clock for that.

Anyway, Happy new year!

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This year a lot of things happened to my life- good and bad that shaped me the way I am today, I can say that I am stronger mentally compare to what I was before. I had so many realizations in life, met some people along the way that taught me some valuable lessons. I can’t say that I am on my best self, but I am definitely in a better state mentally and physically. I still have things I need to improve on myself.

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I am so thankful that I found this community, you guys also made me realize that there are still people on the internet that promote positivity, self love and toxic-free platform. Thank you. I am very hopeful that this new year will be a better year for all of us. I will continue growing.

I wish you all the best and I will talk to you on my next post!

Bye.. 🙂

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Life Update: Work Situation, Health Concern & Starting My YouTube Channel

Hi everyone!

How are you all? It’s so nice to be writing again, I know that I’ve promise to post more often and I try but the past few weeks became an emotional roller coaster to me.

I’ve mentioned on my previous post what happened at work. After that news broke out, our hunt for a new job within the company begun. It wasn’t easy even though they assured us we will get a job and there’s no way any employees will get terminated, but the thing is they still want us to go through the normal process like interviews because they want both sides (department heads and employees) to still get to decide what job they want and who they want for the job.

They put it in a way that they want us to feel we worked for this new role and we deserve it and not we’re here because we didn’t have a choice or they don’t know where else to place us. On which they have a point, to be honest.

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I think I’ve applied to more or less than 10 job postings within our company, got interviewed almost every day and to be honest it’s exhausting. It’s so draining, you feel so anxious all the time because your mind is always thinking about the interview that will happen later that day.

During that time I have developed skin rashes, which I initially thought was skin allergy; I consulted my dermatologist about it and she informed me that the rashes is because of my stress.

She prescribed me some steroid cream to get rid of the rash but she told me it will keep on appearing if I don’t control my emotions, I basically should stop stressing myself and it’s up to me to decide if I want to get better or not. After my visit, all I did was to be more cautious and mindful of what I feed to my mind and my body. I mediated a lot, did breathing exercises more often.

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As mentioned before, I try my best to see our current work situation as something positive, as an oppurtunity to grow and it’s so rare for a company to keep their employees with what’s happening right now.

After waiting what feels like forever, I landed on a new job role on which I will start on Monday. I am so excited and happy because this is something I didn’t expect; I didn’t expect to get accepted in this position, but I am so grateful that I did.

But this is it for now, I will write my entire job hunting experience until how I landed this job role on my next post.

Oh! By the way, I just started my YouTube channel. Yes, I know what you’re thinking, another vlogger.. *rolling eyes*

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LOL.

Not that I have anything against them, but you know what I mean, right?

I’ve been planning to do this since last year because I really want to learn how to film and use my channel to save memories or experiences that I want to treasure forever. I’ve said so many times before how I dislike social media, but I see YouTube as a tool to discover/develop skills in filming or videography.

The YouTube channels that inspired me to start my channel are  李子柒 Liziqi and Her 86m2. I love how simple and peaceful their videos are, how they talk about life. Most of their videos show a lot about living close to nature, which I really love.

Anyway, I posted my first ever video a few days ago, If you don’t mind, please give my channel a visit. Feel free to subscribe and give some feedback on how I can improve my skill, it will be a great help.. really!

Click here to check out my YouTube channel and here’s the link for the first video I posted

Thank you! Bye for now. 🙂

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Life Update: Where I’ve Been?

Hi. Hello!

It has been a month since my last post. Nothing significant happened, but I still have few updates, regardless.

I started working at the office three weeks ago and I would say that it’s such a relief not to worry about any connectivity issues anymore. I am enjoying it so far. I am grateful my company does all necessary health precautions to make sure we are safe.

The situation right now is taking a toll with my mental health but I try to remain strong, fining ways to distract myself from those kinds of thoughts but sometimes you just can’t help but question everything, you see a lot people ignoring the safety measures that is being implemented by the government and you just think how can a person this stupid? I am sorry for the word. In our neighborhood, I hear my neighbors talk about how they’re scared for not wearing masks because they might get fined if the authorities see them not wearing one but for me shouldn’t the first reason they should feel scared is getting sick? To get fined is just the second reason. I feel so frustrated whenever I think about it.

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The past few months I spent on this blog was delightful, but I must admit that sometimes I feel pressured to write. Trying to keep up with everyone else while also trying to convince myself that this isn’t competition. I am supposed to post a new blog after my last post but it didn’t feel right; It doesn’t feel right to publish any of my writing for the sake of keeping up with everyone, regardless of the quality of my writing. I knew I need a break to just pick myself together and reassess everything.

I am in a long distance relationship with my boyfriend, which is already difficult. But being in LDR during the pandemic is the worst. There is still no assurance when we will see each other again. Seeing how our countries are handling the pandemic makes me lose my hope. All I do is scroll down on my Airbnb app and plan things that we can do once our border opens again, it sucks.

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We spent his birthday last month away from each other, it’s hard. I feel so emotional while writing this and thinking about that day. I made a cake for his birthday and I kinda felt silly because it’s not like he can eat the cake, but with the cake it made me feel that he is real, that he exists. Once, I told my boyfriend how I am forgetting what it’s like to be with him, and it pains me. We don’t video/voice call that much, but after that we both decided we should do it more often.

I constantly tell him that despite how this pandemic affected our plans, I feel like it strengthened our relationship; it made me stronger. That’s the silver-lining, I guess.

I try to avoid being dramatic because I don’t think people likes to read that so I apologize in advance.

Anyway, I am back and I am excited to write more about my experiences and hobbies. I’ve missed this community so much. How are guys? I want to know! 🙂

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Social Media Decluttering: 5 Tips to Protect & Minimize Your Digital Footprint

As someone whose life changed after quitting social media, it became my goal to spread awareness on how social media can be dangerous if not used properly. Social media can affect both our health and our security. And with how fast time changes because of all the advances in technology, to gain online information is no longer a difficult thing to do, with just a few clicks away every information that you have online will be available for someone.

I know I can’t convince all of you to quit social media. That’s your life. You do you. I don’t want to be that kind of person who pushes my belief to someone, id like to remain open-minded with what people want in their life.

Based on the data I got from statista.com roughly 3.6 billion people were using social media in 2020, and they expect it to increase up to 4.41 billion people around 2025.. That’s a lot!

Many people sign up on different social media apps/websites each day, some use it for work/business, to express opinions, to communicate but most of us use it for leisure or entertainment, this means that there are more information out there available and, this also means that we can be a target of any online harassment.

Today’s blog is all about. I want to teach you how to declutter and just cautious about what kind of people you’re letting in your social media circle. This post will give you tips on how you can achieve healthier mind and secured life while still using social media.

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1. Unfriend

I remember the time; I think it was back in high school when the number of your friends on Facebook determines your social status. So, it became a contest.. everyone was just adding every profile they see on Facebook. Doesn’t matter if you know them, because that will help boost your popularity. I had 3000+ on my friend list and felt jealous on people who had 5000+ friends,

Then one day, I was scrolling on my Facebook timeline, and saw a lot of posts by unfamiliar people on my timeline, it’s just a lot that I couldn’t read everything. It was a big mess, that moment it felt like something just hit me head and made me realized how invested I was on Facebook and how it was affecting my mental health, I also realised how easier it was for people to get my online information.

Imagine, I had 4000+ people on my friends list that time whom I gave access on my online information, that’s crazy! I decided I will remove people on my friends list; I think i ended up with 300 Facebook friends before I eventually deleted my Facebook account..

2. Unfollow

The people you follow on your social media also affect your mood, I think most of us know that already. There’s a lot of online profiles out there who posts extremely unrealistic posts. We often end up comparing yourself to this person who has this “perfect” body or face, we don’t even notice how much it’s affecting us until it’s too late and it has already taken a toll in our life. I think it’s also important to learn how to identify if what we see is real or fake.

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If you have a social media that has a follow option, I strongly suggest to only follow pages who inspire you and helps you grow as a person, avoid following people who make you feel less or not enough.

Be kind to yourself.

Fact: Do you know that there are websites out there that let you search and view any public Instagram profile without needing to make an Instagram account? Yep, that true! Just search for these keywords: Instagram viewer, IG stories viewers or any keywords related to that, and you’ll find those websites I am talking about.

3. Unsubscribe

This is something I did 3 months ago, I was on YouTube just looking for something funny to watch when I notice that I keep on seeing videos by people who I don’t know on my subscription timeline and I don’t find their content anything helpful, most of them are just clickbait videos or sometimes I subscribed to them because they used to make high quality content.

My entire YouTube page was full of clickbait videos. so I started unsubscribing to every profile who’s content doesn’t interest me, and I can say that my Youtube experience is now much better. I still see videos like that from time to time but I think I can’t really avoid them because it’s Youtube, they have their own ways to make a random video magically appear on your Youtube page. (LOL!)

4. Set it in private!

I believe that this is something we should all do, this is the first step to protect ourselves. And with the amount of information we put on our social media, we should also be cautious about who we give access on our information. It’s so easy to find information about someone nowadays when your social media is not on private mode. That’s your profile, you decide what you post, but I just hope that you’re being mindful.

5. Delete unnecessary posts

I also recommend this one. Personally, I am not contented with just setting up my account on private mode. I also prefer to just delete unnecessary stuff on my profile just to limit my digital footprints. This is something that you can do too.

As I said on my previous blogs, I don’t force you to do this. Quitting social media is obviously not for everyone but being responsible and cautious about what kind of information we put out there, what kind of information you absorb, what kind of people you let in your social media world is a step to a healthier life.

Your diet is not only what you eat. It is what you watch, what you listen to, what you read, the people you hang around. Be mindful of the things you put into your body emotionally, spiritually and physically.

– Anonymous

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Overcoming Stressful Times

I lost my memory for two days.

This happened few weeks ago, I realised it when my Mom asked me what time are we going to my sister’s place because it’s Friday and we always spend our weekends at my sister’s place. I thought my Mom was just joking around that time and I got a bit annoyed because it was early in the morning and I have work; It’s not the best time to make a joke. But then she told me she’s serious, and I had to look on my phone calendar to confirm, and yes, it is Friday. And I can’t believe it.

How come it’s Friday already? In my mind, it’s only Wednesday. I can’t remember what happened on the previous days.

It shocked me. How is that possible? I remember going to sleep the night before and thinking oh it’s going to be Wednesday tomorrow. It was so strange because I remember what I did on Monday that week then Tuesday which was actually Thursday. So, what happened on Tuesday and Wednesday?

The entire experience was so bizarre to me, I didn’t think it’s possible. For me, it was something that only happens in movies, I thought I knew what is happening but here I am.

I did some research to know why it happened, what was that experience all about.. then I found this:

Stress is a potent modulator of brain structure, brain function, and cognition. Although not all types of stress are deleterious to memory function, there are many instances in which stress (both acute and chronic) interferes with explicit types of memory, both in humans and animals (Figure 12.7). Stress hormones are also strong modulators of brain development, and excessive stress experienced at certain time windows of vulnerability during life can profoundly affect cognitive function at later stages, with a particular impact on cognitive aging.

In fact, exposure to chronic stress seems to recapitulate cognitive deficits observed at aging, as well as accelerating the decline in memory function that characterizes senescence.

Sandi C. Memory Impairments Associated with Stress and Aging. In: Bermúdez-Rattoni F, editor. Neural Plasticity and Memory: From Genes to Brain Imaging. Boca Raton (FL): CRC Press/Taylor & Francis; 2007. Chapter 12. Available from: https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/books/NBK3914/

Stress. It was the stress that caused this. The article explained that stress can cause memory loss and if not reduce it is possible worsen as we age.

I wasn’t in my best state when it happened.. A lot of things have been going on with my personal life that I might share in my future posts. And all I did was to worry about it. From the moment I wake up and before I go to bed, I kept on thinking and stressing about so many things.

I try my very best to not get affected by what’s happening around me, the things I don’t have control but sometimes it gets you. I’ve written blogs related to mental health but I’m not perfect, I have my moments too but I try to learn from that to become a better person.

Since that day, I am cautious about everything. Starting on what is the current time and date, what day already, and where I left my things. I started practicing on how to organise my thoughts so it won’t get confusing for me; I assigned places where I should only put my stuff. Working or just simply doing a task, I try not to have so many thoughts to help me focus.

One thing that helps me is journaling. I mentioned this on my previous post— about how it helps me to just write down my thoughts.

Related post: Life Update: Dyeing My Hair, Hamster Adoption and so on.. (Hi! Hello!)

I found an idea on Pinterest, it’s like a daily check up for your physical and emotional state. The idea is quite interesting and I find it useful as it gives me an overview of my overall health (not official diagnosis ofc!). It was surprising for me to see the state of my health, it’s so different when you see it written on a piece of paper than just letting the day go by and hope that tomorrow will be a better day.

Journaling Idea (not my photo)

Yesterday I was talking to my friend on WhatsApp, just catching up and checking each other. Then we went on talking about how it’s already -Ber months, which is quite a big deal in our country because that means Christmas Season has already started. Then I admitted to her that I’m not excited at all. I mean, to be honest.. I stopped feeling excited about Christmas when I started adulthood, but this year is so much different.

Before, we have memories on what we did for the previous month.

“Last May, we went to this beach. And had fun watching the sunset.”

“June, we started our classes and it was a rainy month.”

“August, almost Ber! Time to do Christmas shopping!”

But now. It feels like we’re stuck in March. I don’t have memories of what I did from the previous months, and it made me sad.

A lot of awful things is happening in the world right now, which what makes everything so hard for me. Its difficult to stay positive when there are disasters after disasters.

There was a Reddit post, the user talked about how he loves this year because of how unpredictable and interesting it is.. It’s so different from his boring/repetitive routine before.

The post made me feel safe in weird way.

Human’s ability to withstand difficulties in life and see the good in every situation even if it’s the most unfortunate one is fascinating. This kind of mindset gives me hope that we will be okay. That there will be an end for all of this.

We will survive this pandemic.

(featured photo taken by my boyfriend ♥ )

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Documentaries: Our Window To The Real World

I am a huge fan of documentaries.

I started writing a post about it a few months ago, and for some reason I wasn’t able to finish writing and the post just ended up as a draft.

Yesterday, I was binge watching documentaries from the YouTube Channels called Unreported World and Refinery29. I felt so inspired after watching that I decided to finish this post.. So, here we are.

My interest in watching documentaries started when I was in grade school. My class starts at 6:30 am and I get up around 3:30 am, I will turn on the television after taking a cold shower and start watching documentaries on our local channels. I loved it. I enjoyed every minute I spent watching documentaries. It one thing I always look forward to once I wake up.

For me, documentaries are like my window to see the reality of this giant flawed place we live in, It’s so fascinating how there are so much things going on in this world that I don’t know. There’s a lot of practices or traditions that are still present that I thought have already vanished for a long time now, which I find interesting. It’s crazy most of the time.

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The thing about documentaries is they try to show you the world as real as possible, most of the time you will see the struggles/challenges they had to go through just to provide a quality film.

It’s so amazing how documentaries—a video that lasts less than an hour, inspires you to become a better person and have this desire to make this world a better place. I learn a lot of things just by watching and the message they send always leave a tremendous impact on my well-being.

It’s so far from the movies or series that use special effects or high tech cameras. Documentaries don’t have script; they don’t know what waits for them or what will happen to them while they’re filming. Not every documentary is a success, and their life is at stake most of the time.

I like other forms of media, but documentary will always have a special place in my heart. Their dedication to provide information to the public is just one thing I admire.

I don’t have my favourite genre, but today I will share with you some documentaries I think you’ll find interesting, I hope that you’ll like it.

UNBREAKABLE:

The Western States 100 

China’s Gay Shock Therapy

Uncontacted Tribe

Siberia’s Next Supermodel

Wild Amazon

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