I Finally Got My Philippine Passport

YES, you read that right. I am 23 years old and still haven’t got my passport until recently. The thing is, I actually tried to get it for 2 times already- it’s embarrassing! But oh well, let me tell you anyway..



First try, I was still in high school. I went online and fill up the application form and checked the requirements I need to bring. My supposed appointment was still in 3 months! It was a very long wait. On the day of my appointment, I went to DFA Alimall Satellite Office, then the security guards checked my documents and went inside to verify my appointment. When they got back, they told me that I don’t have an appointment, I was confused.. I told them that my appointment was that day and they said I am right; it was supposed to be on that day but I missed to confirm my appointment via email and I am supposed to confirm it within 24 hrs from the moment I set up an appointment for my passport!

I was so disappointed that day. It was clearly my fault for missing that detail. I wasn’t a tech savvy that time and I never really check or know how to check emails when I was still in high school. But that’s what happened. It was a total waste of time, but I thought I learned my lesson.

Second try, it was thru DFA’s program named Passport on Wheels. I used to work every Sunday for this church in a subdivision near where I live and the employees were kind enough to offer me to register because it was actually exclusive for the residents that lives in the subdivision. They asked me to submit my requirements and told me to monitor my email for the payment, but what happened was I forgot about it. And only checked my email when the employees there asked me why I didn’t show up.. Only then I checked my email and viola!! I received an email 3 days after I submitted my requirements. I felt so embarrassed that time.

Because of my 2 previous attempts, I stopped, and I tried to avoid thinking about trying again because I get so anxious about the idea, that time it seemed like getting a passport is not for me.

And then I tried again after years of avoiding it.

I tried for 3rd time because as you all know I am in a long distance relationship and passport is necessary for us.

For context: Long Distance Relationship: Meeting My Boyfriend For The First Time!

This happened last December 2020 and the earliest slots open that time will be on March 2021, but I still took it.

On the last week before my appointment date, I checked my requirements again to make sure I got everything right, but then I realized that the birth certificate I have with me is the old version which they don’t accept anymore. This really triggered my panic attack and I stared feeling dizzy, I messed up again.

But I tried to calm myself and thought how I can fix it. My mom told me that it’s very easy to get a birth certificate, you just need to go to the government agency in-charge of it, in our country it’s called Philippine Statistics Authority or PSA.

I went there the next day and everything went well and I was able to get what I needed the same day. But my anxiety got the best of me because before I went there, I already ordered my birth certificate online the night before thru the same agency’s delivery service. I was that anxious. Funny enough, I received it the day before my appointment so now I have 2 copies of my birth certificate with me!

On the day of my appointment, I came 2 hrs early because I was so scared to miss my appointment. I got there and stopped by at 7/11 Convenience Store to get something to drink. Then I went back to the satellite office, I waited in line for atleast an hr and after that everything went smoothly. I was overprepared and brought documents that I didn’t have to bring or they didn’t ask but that’s better than not being prepared at all, right?

I was told that my passport will get released after 2 weeks. But then Enhanced Community Quarantine happened!

You see, my appointment was on Friday, then the week after that our government announced ECQ. How lucky am I?! I am so thankful that it happened after my appointment because if not then I’ll have to wait and that will only make my anxiety worse.

Anyway, after 2 weeks ECQ was changed to MECQ and the satellite agency resumed their operation.

I was so excited the moment they handed me my passport! It felt surreal. After all the delays and unfortunate events here I am. I am now a Philippine passport holder!

Hopefully, I will be able to use this soon.

Cheers!

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Learning A New Language

I started learning Dutch more than a year ago but recently I decided to take it seriously as I wanted to have a knowledge of the language once I move to the country where my boyfriend lives.

It’s fun to learn new language especially whenever I listen to some Dutch kids’ songs, It made me feel like I am in preschool again and that kinda feels funny and awkward, so I listen to using my headphones whenever I am not alone at home. Haha!

I also talked to some people who are studying the same language and we exchange some learning materials.

There’s this girl who I met through Reddit that is also in a long distance relationship with someone who lives in The Netherlands. That time when we started she is already in the process of getting a work visa, I think? I am not sure what visa specifically, but she told me she’s applying to be an Au pair in The Netherlands so she can also see her boyfriend. She hasn’t met this guy yet because their relationship started during the pandemic.

And I can feel she wants to do it, and she’s willing to go through the long stressful process to be with her partner even though she haven’t met this guy yet. She talked to me a lot about her boyfriend, that she’s never been this happy as she was in abusive relationship prior that.

The dedication she has with learning Dutch and really going through the process of getting a visa. It made me realize how love can make us do all of this. Imagine her life turned in a whole different direction after she met this guy?! I can totally relate with that one! LOL.

Anyway, if anyone here is currently learning Dutch or is Dutch, please give me some advice about learning the language.. Thank you in advance!

Okay okay..

I will go to sleep now, I’ll write again next time..

Tot ziens! ❤️

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Life Update: Where I’ve Been?

Hi. Hello!

It has been a month since my last post. Nothing significant happened, but I still have few updates, regardless.

I started working at the office three weeks ago and I would say that it’s such a relief not to worry about any connectivity issues anymore. I am enjoying it so far. I am grateful my company does all necessary health precautions to make sure we are safe.

The situation right now is taking a toll with my mental health but I try to remain strong, fining ways to distract myself from those kinds of thoughts but sometimes you just can’t help but question everything, you see a lot people ignoring the safety measures that is being implemented by the government and you just think how can a person this stupid? I am sorry for the word. In our neighborhood, I hear my neighbors talk about how they’re scared for not wearing masks because they might get fined if the authorities see them not wearing one but for me shouldn’t the first reason they should feel scared is getting sick? To get fined is just the second reason. I feel so frustrated whenever I think about it.

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The past few months I spent on this blog was delightful, but I must admit that sometimes I feel pressured to write. Trying to keep up with everyone else while also trying to convince myself that this isn’t competition. I am supposed to post a new blog after my last post but it didn’t feel right; It doesn’t feel right to publish any of my writing for the sake of keeping up with everyone, regardless of the quality of my writing. I knew I need a break to just pick myself together and reassess everything.

I am in a long distance relationship with my boyfriend, which is already difficult. But being in LDR during the pandemic is the worst. There is still no assurance when we will see each other again. Seeing how our countries are handling the pandemic makes me lose my hope. All I do is scroll down on my Airbnb app and plan things that we can do once our border opens again, it sucks.

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We spent his birthday last month away from each other, it’s hard. I feel so emotional while writing this and thinking about that day. I made a cake for his birthday and I kinda felt silly because it’s not like he can eat the cake, but with the cake it made me feel that he is real, that he exists. Once, I told my boyfriend how I am forgetting what it’s like to be with him, and it pains me. We don’t video/voice call that much, but after that we both decided we should do it more often.

I constantly tell him that despite how this pandemic affected our plans, I feel like it strengthened our relationship; it made me stronger. That’s the silver-lining, I guess.

I try to avoid being dramatic because I don’t think people likes to read that so I apologize in advance.

Anyway, I am back and I am excited to write more about my experiences and hobbies. I’ve missed this community so much. How are guys? I want to know! 🙂

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Long Distance Relationship versus All The Chaos

As you all know, I’m in a long distance relationship with my boyfriend for almost 2 years now. We first met online, then met twice in person ever since we started dating.

Last April was supposedly our third meeting, he was going to to stay here for a month to attend my sister’s wedding in May, but we obviously had to cancel it. At first we’re both hesitant to cancel it because it’s March already, just a few more weeks of waiting, but then the situation worsen in our country we eventually had to cancel his flight.

It ruined all our plans and now we’re in a place where we don’t know when we’re going to see each other again.

Long distance relationship is already difficult. We are so far away from each other, meeting a few times a year and then now there is no certainty when this pandemic will end and when our borders will completely allow inbound flights here, it’s a worrisome for sure.

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But we’re both doing our best to make time for our relationship. We video/voice calls as often as possible. We also tried watching a series together but the internet in our country is terrible so we don’t get to do it as often as we want to. Do stuff together as simple as eating.

Ever since this happened, we tried to be positive and just continued hoping that the situation will get better soon. The trick works most of the time, but it’s not always cheery colors and smiles. We also have our bad times too.

Sometimes we just have this day where all we do is talk about how much we want to see each other.. just “planning” things and looking back on everything we did together then sometimes I spent most of the day on internet trying to see if there’s good news in regards the situation. It’s heartbreaking we don’t have any idea when we’re going to see each other again.

I remember crying every night and just looking through our photos asking myself when am I going to see him again, and just wishing that he is always safe

As much as we want to see each other, we don’t want to risk the health and safety of ourselves and the people around us just because.. Right now, we are just hoping that we are going to see each other by the end of this year or early next year *fingers crossed*

I don’t have a lot of advice for everyone who is also experiencing the same situation like ours as were also still trying to figure things out, but all I can say is don’t give up, find ways to make your relationship work. I believe that everything will get better soon.

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Long Distance Relationship: 10 Questions About Our Relationship

I mentioned on my last post about my Long Distance Relationship that I will have a short Q&A blog with my boyfriend.

Finally, last week we both had free time to do it. What happened was I sent him a set of questions that I got from here, and let him choose 10 questions that he wants both of us to answer.

1. What do you remember most about the night/day we first met??

Him: I remember that it’s way less awkward than I expected, after the first 10 minutes I just felt like I was talking with someone that I had known for a long time.

Me: It was so awkward for me at first but I felt comfortable just after few minutes.

2. What about our relationship makes you really happy?

Him: What makes me happy is that I know I can depend on you and you love me for who I am.

Me: I’m happy because I found a person that understands and accepts everything about me.

3. What’s your biggest fear for this relationship?

Him: That we’re gonna grow apart because we’re not able to do things in real life.

Me: Same as your answer.

4. Do you believe there’s one person you’re “meant” to be with?

Him: No. Things like this are pure luck.

Me: I don’t know. I haven’t really thought about that kind of concept. But when I think about it, I’m not sure if that’s true. If you fell on this person already I believe you’ll do whatever it takes to make your relationship strong.

5. What’s one similarity between us that you absolutely love?

Him: We’re both stubborn and a lot of time it creates funny situation.

Me: I feel the same lol

6. What’s your favorite memory of us?

Him: Dancing to “Your Hand In Mine” at night during my first stay in the Philippines.

Me: That memory and also our late night walks.

7. If something happened where I had to move very far away, would you attempt long-distance? Or go separate ways?

Him: I think I can do that long distance thing. 😉

Me: We’re doing that already :p

8. Where is your favorite place to be with me?

Him: Just anywhere in a big city at night going for a walk.

Me: Anywhere as long as I’m with you

9. What about love scares you?

Him: The thing that scares me about love losing it, I don’t know what would happen or how I would deal with it.

Me: Same as your answer but I don’t think about that a lot because I can feel that our relationship is really strong.

10. What’s one thing you want to do together that we’ve never done before?

Him: Having our own place with a garden and pets.

Me: Roller coaster! Hahaha!

That’s it! I hope that you enjoyed reading our answers. Thank you! 🙂

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Long Distance Relationship: Our Anniversary Dinner Date!

We had our second meeting last November here in my country again (Philippines) and we really planned it to be on November so in that way we can also celebrate our anniversary together.

Our first plan was to celebrate our anniversary in a fancy restaurant, but as I longer think about the idea, I realized that it’s really not something I’m comfortable with. I’m not really used on going to fancy places because to be honest.. I’m too lazy to make an effort to fit in a place like that. The thought of wearing a dress makes me feel so uncomfortable already and gives me so much anxiety and it’s the same for my boyfriend. LOL!

Then I got an idea, why don’t we just set our own dinner date? We can just buy and cook some food, right? Anyways, my boyfriend is a great cook.. I even call him my personal chef! 😛

I told him about it and my boyfriend agreed.

The day came (YAY!) and I was so excited for the dinner. Actually, we had a little disagreement about what we want for the dinner set up but we talked and made adjustments for both of us in the end.

My boyfriend prepared steak and pasta. We also bought a small cake, wine and small candles because wanted to have a candlelight dinner and then organized the table myself. (I apologized if this part was too cringy or too romantic.. we just can’t help it!)

We started our date night. We ate (it was so delicious!). We played our favorite songs and slow-dance.. We had a very romantic anniversary date. We were actually proud of ourselves because of how we managed to set up everything. I know it wasn’t like the set up you actually see in a fancy restaurant but for me preparing it ourselves is just more meaningful than anything else. And until now I’m still daydreaming about that night, such a perfect day for us. We talked about so many things including our plans for the future. That time, I felt so much more closer to him..

How I wish for that moment not to end.

But well… because of what’s currently happening in the world right now, I worry that I won’t be able to see him this year. He was supposed to visit for 3rd time this month but of course it got cancelled. We’re both very sad about it, but we always tell each other that this is for the best. Our health is our priority right now, it’s just that… I have days that I feel so lonely, it really sucks. How I wish we’re together right now.. We hope to see each other as soon as possible.

Anyways, this post was only supposed to be about our anniversary, I apologized for the extra drama, LOL.

This is all for now, until next time. ❤

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Long Distance Relationship: Meeting My Boyfriend For The First Time!

I live in the Philippines and I’m in a long distance relationship with my Dutch boyfriend who currently lives in Belgium.

That’s a distance of more than 6,000 miles away from each other. Crazy right?!!

Well, about a year ago, I met my boyfriend for the first time. We were already in a relationship for 6 months when he went here.

The day we met for the first time was one of the craziest day of my life.

We decided to rent an Airbnb because he will be staying in my country for 3 weeks. The day before his arrival, I was already at the Airbnb to arrange my stuff. I was so nervous that time thinking that I will finally meet him, also nervous that maybe he is bad guy or something lol! But I tried to clear my head and just distract myself from those thoughts.

Next day, I was on my way to airport. The waiting line for the train was really long.. mind you it was only 8 AM that time. Kinda annoying.. I was so worried that I wont be at the airport on time as my station is actually the last station.

After almost an hour in the line and more than 30 mins in the train I finally arrived on my station.. BUT I’m not in the airport yet, I still need to ride a bus. It wasn’t as difficult like waiting for the train. I managed to arrive at the airport 1 hour before my boyfriend’s arrival which is at 11 am I think.

There! I can see on the monitor that the plane where my boyfriend is has already landed, I was really really really nervous and excited. My boyfriend texted me that he arrived already just to update, but our texting was limited because we’re now using a regular texting and it is so expensive just for a single text, 30 minutes has already passed but I still couldn’t see my boyfriend and I’m starting to feel frustrated.. I was thinking why is this taking so long? HAHAHA! -_-

He texted me that he is just getting his luggage then after few minutes he texted me that he is already outside but I can’t see him. I replied describing my location and provided him a landmark.. I think it took more than hour before we finally found each other…

That moment was pretty funny, I saw this tall guy right across the road just standing and looks like he was lost. I instantly knew it was him because of his shirt. I walked across the road but he was looking the other way so he didn’t noticed that I’m already walking towards him and I took that as an opportunity to surprise him!! I poked him on his back, he turn around then froze! He was so surprise that he didn’t even hugged me or anything.. It was so funny.

I gave him a soft punch just to lighten up the situation because it felt so awkward of course, we both laugh awkwardly..

We took a cab and went straight to Airbnb, the awkwardness was replaced by so much happiness while we were in the cab. We felt so comfortable with each other that fast.

And I’m really happy on how it turned out. 🙂

PS. I will post more stories about my long distance relationship soon!

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